Saturday, January 8, 2011

The Pleasantview Chronicles: Lace (pt. 1)--The Broke Family


            “Mom! Ricky’s crying again!” Beau complained as he ran to his mother’s room.
            Brandi was chattering on her cell phone and paid no mind to her son’s complaint.
            Beau shrugged and went back to his room, where he easily chatted away on Myspace.
            A few moments later, Dustin came into Beau’s room. He was looking for a shirt that he let his brother borrow.
            “I think it’s drying,” Beau admitted as he typed away.
            “Who are you talking to?”
            “A friend.”
            “Do I know this friend?”
            “Why should I tell you?”
            “Don’t get smart with me. What if it’s some seventy year old pedophile that rapes and kills little boys?”
            “It’s a friend from school.”
            “Guy or girl?”
            “That’s too personal.”
            Dustin shrugged. “I’m just looking out for you, that’s all. I have a Myspace too, though I rarely use it. I know all about those perverts and what they want.”
            “Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever. Can you get Ricky? Mom’s on the phone.”
            Dustin sighed. “Whatever. If you find my shirt, put it in my room.”
            “Okay.”
            Dustin then left.
            Beau then sent a message to another person. Will you meet me at the park afterschool tomorrow?
The_Embalmer:           Who’s this?
Rox666            :           A friend.
The_Embalmer: Should I trust you? Do I even know you?
Rox666:           Of course you do. I live here in Pleasantview, and I live on the same street. I just want to                                          talk to you. I’ve been watching you for a while now, and I think you’re cute.
The_Embalmer: Are you asking me out?
Rox666:           Maybe.
The_Embalmer:           *Laughs* Should I trust you?
Rox666:           Of course. I’m a very trusting person. And, plus, would a seventy year old rapist really                                            tell you where he lives?
The_Embalmer:           Well, you have a point…How’d you find me?
Rox666:           Friend of a friend’s friend list. I
The_Embalmer:           Well, you should add me.
Rox666:           I sent you an add request.
The_Embalmer:           That was you?
Rox666:           I bet you denied it.
The_Embalmer:           *Laughs* You bet. But, send me another one.
Rox666:           Okay. So, I’ll see you at the park, tomorrow afterschool?
The_Embalmer: I get out at three.
Rox666:           Then, I’ll see you at four.

            At first, Angela had been a good girlfriend. She wasn’t clingy or mushy, and she had given Dustin space. But, lately, she criticized everything he did. For example, she’d criticize his way of dressing, though she had been the one who had suggested it.
            He didn’t want to admit it, but he was getting tired of it; tired of her.
            So, when the thought of breaking up with Angela came to him, he didn’t reject it right away. He pondered it. And, now, he kind of wanted it.
            Angela was…was too complaining. He wanted to free himself and be what he wanted to be; have friends he wanted to have. For the past two years, he had been molded into what Angela thought was perfect. He went to the parties that had the same arrogant and stuck up people. They all seemed to have plastic surgery.
            But, his mother loved Angela. She thought Angela was a doll. She even planned out how Dustin and Angela would live when they got married.
            Now, Dustin was on the swing in front of the house. Now, he thought about what his mother had said about Angela.
            He looked up to see Janie Alders coming back from a walk. He hadn’t noticed it, but she was in his Chemistry class. She turned to see him and smiled.
            He waved to her, a friendly gesture. He got up and walked across the street. “Hey.”
            “Hey.”
            “Ready for the test?” He was talking about the Chemistry test.
            “I didn’t even look at my notes.” She didn’t seem too surprised about it.
            “Are you gonna?”
            “Nope.” She smiled. “In a few months, we’ll be in college.”
            “True.”
            “So, I could fail every test that I’ll have for the rest of this year.” She laughed.
            “Won’t your parents be mad?”
            “I don’t think they care much anymore.”
            He nodded.
            “Hey, you’re going out with Angela Pleasant, right?”
            “Uh, yeah.”
            “Is she a pain in the ass?”
            The way she casually asked made him laugh. “What do you mean?”
            “Well, Lilith and I are best friends and she always complains about her sister. So, I wonder who the hell  would be able to go out with such a…a…”
            “Bitch?” Dustin asked.
            Janie blushed. “T-that’s a harsh word.”
            “I know it may sound mean, but it’s the perfect word. I admit that she’s acting kind of bitchy nowadays.”
            She smirked. “Wow, you must’ve fallen out of love with her.”
            “…I guess.”
            She sighed as she looked at the setting sun. “Well, I should get going. I haven’t had dinner yet.”
            “Uh, my mom’s  having a barbeque Saturday. Want to come?”
            “…Uh…I don’t think  your mom likes me…”
            “What makes you say that?”
            “Well…she looks at me with this disapproving look; she kind of squints her eyes at me like she’s glaring at me or something.”
            “She must have a hard time looking at you, since she’s getting blind…” he lied. “Anyways, you should come. It’s going to be fun.”
            “Well…I’ll think about it.”

            Brandi stared at the picture of her late husband as she fed her toddler. It was interesting and miraculous at how she had conceived Ricky just the day before Skip passed away.
            How long was it going to be since she actually found herself living life without Skip? Years ago, when he had just passed away, she found herself wondering if she could actually live life. And, now, she was fine with it.
            The death of her husband had become a distant memory that would sometimes call forth her tears, when she thought long and hard about it. But, she rarely had time to think long and hard about it, since her hands were full with three children.
            But, she still couldn’t believe that her boys were growing up; a sign that she was getting old. She was nearing thirty seven and the thought of eventually dying alone frightened her and contaminated her thoughts when the boys were at school and Ricky was sleeping.
            She heard the door open and went to greet the opener.
            “I invited the Alders’ family,” Dustin announced.
            Instantly, Brandi glared. “Why?”
            “Mom, they’re good people and-.”
            “Yes, Mr. and Mrs. Alders are good people. I just don’t like their daughter.”
            “She’s a good person too. Open up to her.”
            “…Are you implying that you like her? You have Angela!”
            “Mom, I’m just saying she’s a good kid. I wouldn’t cheat on Angela,” he lied.
            “Good. I wouldn’t like you if you did.” She sighed. “Well, I guess it might be okay. I haven’t seen the girl dye her hair neon green or pink. I just don’t like her lip piercing…”
            “But I have a lip and a nose piercing.”
            “That’s different. And…I don’t like the way she dresses.”
            “She dresses fine.”
            “She’s a menace to society.”
            “Lilith is the menace.”
            Brandi shrugged. “If you’re going to argue, I don’t feel like it. Dinner will be ready in  an hour. And, can you see Ricky? He’s been misbehaving lately…I don’t feel like disciplining him.”
            “Sure. Is he in your room?”
            She nodded and he headed away. She made way for the kitchen. She took out the cutting board and began to cut up a macabre of vegetables. Tonight would have to be stew surprise.
            Her mind began to give her the image of Janie Alders. Now that she thought about it, if one were to remove the atrocious eye liner and piercings, dress her up in a nice sundress, and comb her hair, she would be a beautiful girl.
            And, she came from a very good family.
            What if…what if she and Dustin became a couple? Oh, their kids would be adorable…And, Dustin could easily get a good a secured position in the hospital.
            Brandi immediately shook her head. “I shouldn’t be thinking about that,” she muttered. “He has Angela. Their kids would look good too…”
            But, Angela’s family didn’t have connections to the hospital.

            After an hour phone call from Angela after dinner, Dustin trotted to his room. He plopped on to his bed and took out the outside reading book he had for his English class: The Scarlet Letter.
            As he continued to read it, he began to wonder what would’ve happened if he was put in the same situation as the main character. As he continued to wonder, he wondered who his other significant person would be…
            And, he laughed at the ironic thought of him cheating on Angela with Lilith.
            He mentally went through all of the eligible girls in the neighborhood. But, they all tested negative in his compatibility test. One, though, tested positive: Janie.
            From what he had observed, she was a very fun girl: positive, outgoing, and cute. He glanced at his hands, imagining the feel of her hair and body under his fingertips.
            And, the more he imagined it, the more he felt excited; felt hopeful.
            He set his book down and laid on his stomach. He took out his PSP and played his fighting game, attempting to get the thought of him and Janie out of his mind. It was not a good attempt when the hero of his fighting game got the damsel in distress.
            Why couldn’t he stop thinking about it? Why was she the only one who might be able to be compatible with him after a hundred or so other girls in the neighborhood?
            “Dustin?” his mom called out after a knock on the door.
            Dustin got up and opened his door. “Yeah.”
            “Just came by to say good night.”
            “Okay.” Dustin looked at his mother from her toes to her face. God, when did she grow so old? “Mom, when’d you get those wrinkles?” he joked.
            She laughed. “Oh, Honey…”
            “Can you believe I’m going to college?”
            “…No, Honey, I can’t.”
            “God, then Beau will be going…then Ricky…”
            “Yeah, time flies by fast.” She sighed. “Still not done with your homework?”
            “Just a report, Mom, no big deal.”
            “I don’t want you failing in your last semester of high school.”
            “What difference does it make? I’ll be going to college, and I’ve already been accepted.”
            “Reputation,” Brandi answered, “I don’t want your reputation to be damaged. You know how it is here; reputation is everything.”
            Dustin nodded, remembering all of those people with a bad reputation and how Pleasantview’s society now treated them. Such as Nina Caliente or Cassandra Goth…
            Brandi laid a hand on her son’s shoulder and gave him a good pat. “I think we should be getting to bed. It’s a school night.”

            After dropping Beau off at school, Dustin headed to his own school. He knew that he was obligated to pick up Angela; but he didn’t want to hear her dull explanation of why she had to call three times after he had gone to sleep.
            After parking his car, he grabbed his books and spotted the face he was unintentionally looking for. “Janie!”
            She turned around, the gleam of her glasses reflecting the sun’s brightness. “Hey, Dustin.”
            He quickly jogged to her. “Did you study?”
            She smirked. “Course not.”
            They began to walk, while he volunteered to test her on the formulas. He was genuinely surprised to find out that she knew all of them.
            “Where’s your girlfriend?” she asked as they stopped by her locker.
            “Forgot to pick her up.”
            “Won’t she cause a scene?”
            “I’ll play it cool; she always plays a scene.”
            Janie laughed. “Well…I got to get to first period.”
            “Oh? What do you have?”
            “Calculus.”
            “Wow. Uh, yeah, I got to get to class too. Oh, and hey, what about Saturday?”
            She smirked while walking backwards to her class. “It slipped my mind.” She turned around, just as she was about to collide with the brawny PE teacher, Mr. Hutchison.
            “Watch it.”
            Dustin snickered as he watched Janie apologize in the utmost sincere way and nearly ran to her first period.
            The bell hadn’t rang yet, so Dustin decided to do a little tour. He stopped by the snack line and purchased a quart of 1% milk. He meet up with some of his friends from the baseball team: Greg and Kyle Myrtle, Omar Richards, and Chase Thompson who was the only one younger than the others. He, though, was the rookie of the varsity baseball team.
            “You going to sign up for next season?” Kyle asked, showing signs that he had a date with some pot the other night.
            “Why didn’t you invite me?” Omar asked as he nudged Kyle.
            “To what?”
            “You had some pot last night, didn’t you?”
            “…Roman Callaghan invited me.” Kyle smirked. “We’re partying at Damon’s on Saturday. Anyone interested?”
            “Of course,” Dustin replied. “…Oh wait. Damn it, my mom has a barbeque this Saturday.”
            “That shouldn’t be a problem,” Chase admitted, “You always ditched your mom’s barbeques.”
            “Not this time.”
            “Why not?”
            Dustin smiled as he looked at the carton of milk. “Well, I invited someone…”
            “Other than Angela?” an astonished Greg asked.
            Dustin’s cheeks turned a bit reddish. “Yeah.”
            “Who is it?” Omar inquired. “Is it someone we know? It has to be a chick, right? Or is it a guy?”
            “It’s a girl.”
            “Are you cheating on Angela?” Kyle gasped.
            “No-no, she’s a friend. And, she just moved across the street and-.” With that little slip, Dustin’s friends knew exactly who this person was.
            “It’s Janie, right? Janie Alders?” Omar sounded a bit too excited. “She’s the only one who just moved into that creepy house across from yours!”
            “Okay, Omar, you’re over exaggerating. The house is only a Victorian styled place,” Chase admitted.
            The bell rang and the group broke off, Kyle and Omar headed towards their side of the school, and Greg, Chase, and Dustin headed off into their opposite side of the school.
            “Did anyone study for Smith’s Chemistry test?” Chase asked. He had Smith for second period, and he was rarely known to study for anything. It was a wonder how a sophomore of his study skills was able to get into such an advanced class as Smith’s Chemistry class.
            “I didn’t make a cheat sheet.” Dustin’s eyes rolled.
            “How’d you study?” Chase inquired.
            “I did a small review. How are things with Ashley?”
            Chase’s expression dimmed. “We broke up.”
            Greg shook his head. “The whole world knows that the number one chick to never date is Ashley Carson. How many times have we told you that she would never be serious about you?”
            “She may be a good friend, but she’s a…a bitch.”
            “Hey, you’re okay, right?” Greg asked. “You’ve moved on, right?”
            Chase slowly nodded. “Yeah. I-I’ve moved on.”
            “Good,” Dustin admitted. “Now, you can move on to bigger girls. Like, that one.” He pointed to Marianne Sutters, the girl with a rather…attractive body.
            “Yeah,” Chase replied. “I can move on.”
            At the Algebra II room with Mr. Hanes, Greg and Dustin took their leave. Before the late bell rang, Dustin poked his head out to see Chase turn to his English class.
            “Do you really think he’s fine with this?” Dustin asked as he took his seat next to Greg.
            “Course not. We all know how serious he is about Ashley. He was like in Heaven when Ashley agreed to go out on a date with him.”
            “…Yeah, you’re right.”
            The late bell rang and Mr. Hanes began his lecture on the different types of parental graphs.

Monday, January 3, 2011

How To Let Go

Chapter 2: Significance
            When I opened my eyes, I first noticed the agonizing smell of French Onion soup. Only one person could have the audacity to come into my house and cook French Onion: my mother.
            I groaned and sat up, using all of the unknown strength that I didn’t have.  “Mom.”
            “It’s about time you woke up,” she complained. But, I could tell by her voice that she had been crying as much as I had. “How many times have I called you? I even called to let you know that I was coming to LA today. I had to get a taxi and that cost me fifty dollars.”
            I wanted to smile, but no smile came. “Sorry.”
            She sighed as she sat next to me, putting her hand on my leg. Her sadness was emitted through her fingertips. “I made some soup. I noticed how you’ve only been eating TV dinners and canned soups. Get up and get cleaned: we’re having a nice family meal.”
            “With just the two of us?”
            “Surprise, surprise, I invited your father.”
            “Is he here?”
            “Last time I called him, he was checking into a Hilton. He said he’d be here in an hour.”
            Millions of words could have been exchanged between the silence that followed after that poor excuse of a conversations. Maybe even a billion of words, but only three could be uttered by me: “Mom, he’s gone.”
            Two women bawled that moment. Two women have never been closer until that moment. And, two women who could not have been so different.
            There was my mother, who had been missing in my life for over fifteen years; there was a woman who had severed ties with her family when she was the one who filed for a divorce; there was the woman who had given birth to James Tyler Carter the II.
            God, she was my mother, but why were we so different?
            After what seemed like an hour or so, my mother was the one to stop crying. She kissed my forehead and brought my head to her shoulder. “Your father will be here, soon. I’ll go continue dinner.” She wiped her tears, stood up, and went to the kitchen.
            Never once did she tell me to stop crying. For that, I was grateful.     
            When my dad appeared in my doorway, he attempted to smile while facing my crying face.
            “Hey, Honey.” He offered no hug, and it seemed that he remained the same cold man that he was known to be.
            “H-hey, Daddy.” I let him in.
            “Hey, Lizzie,” he greeted my mother.
            “Hi, James.”
            “How’ve you been?”
            They drifted into a conversation that was held between two friends. They acted like nothing happened. And, for that, I wanted to scream at them. Their son was dead; their daughter was crying her eyes out. But, they continued their conversation like it was just another office party.
            I couldn’t take it, so I left to the bathroom.
            Mom’s towels were all set up; her purple tooth brush laid parallel to mine. She was here to stay.
            In this bathroom, I could hear the conversation being casually talked through between my parents.
            “How’s Ben?” Dad asked.
            “He’s doing good.”
            “Work?”
            “Oh, yes, it’s going fine. There’s been a lot of lay-offs, but I’m thankful that my seniority has helped me.”
            “Same here.”
            “Is Janine and Tyson still living next to the house?”
            “They moved out about five years ago.”
            Once again, they drifted into a conversation that I couldn’t relate to.
            Now, I sit here on the edge of my bath tub and still try to wipe these wet eyes. But, no matter how many times I wipe them away, the instantly come back. These tears turn into hiccups, and suddenly, I’m bawling.

            Mom had put on the classic Bee Gees collection that Dad had on his iPod. Each song brought about a new old memory: ‘Stayin’ Alive’ with my dad discoing; Mom’s ballad of ‘How Deep Is Your Love’ to Dad; and, of course, a family classic of ‘I Started a Joke’.
            And, though this song had nothing to do with the experience, all three of us could only feel the lyrics in our souls crying out:
                        And, how can you mend a broken heart?
                        How can you stop the rain from falling down?
                        How can you stop the sun from shining?
                        What makes the world go round?
            I could feel the tears forming.
                        How can you mend this broken man?
                        How can a loser ever win?
                        Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again…          
            As the song faded away, our spirits died away as well. It was a true question: how do you mend a broken heart? Could it truly be mended?
            And the way Barry Gibb questions how are you to do something so impossible—like stopping the rain from falling down or how could you stop the sun from shining—emphasized how impossible mending a broken heart was. Before—even before love—I thought that this song was pointless. And…and now, why has it become so meaningful in a few minutes of the song? So significant even after so many years of listening to it?
            Suddenly, Dad’s iPod switches to a more up-beat and modern sound: U2. The tears disappear as we all sing along to ‘Vertigo’.
            Mom brought out the stir-fried chicken and wild rice.
            “Eat up, Honey.” She put an extra helping on my plate. “You’re going to need it.”
            “Why? What’s up?”
            Dad wiped his mouth. “You’re taking us out, tomorrow.”
            I look at him. “What do you mean?”
            He smiled. “It’s been almost thirty years since I’ve been out here; you’d better take me out for some sight seeing.”
            My parents planned out where they wanted to go: Hollywood, Long Beach, Universal Studios…
            When they replenished their own ancient memories of the classic places like Disneyland, I can only tell them how much those places have changed. It was then that I realized I could have never loved my parents more: with their laughter, they attempted to appease my sorrows.
            On deciding rooms, Dad volunteered for the sofa; Mom got the study.
            The bed I was given to this night brought out more memories; old memories from ages ago. This was the same bed I had when I was a little girl. On the left corner of my bed, Jimmy would sit and read me bedtime stories. Sometimes, on my right, I felt his breath.
            No one sits at the left corner of my bed; no warmth comes from my right. The bed had never been colder. At least on the couch, he had left something for me to hold on to. On my bed, just faint memories that must be called from the back of my mind remain.
            I can’t sleep. I just can’t sleep.

            We head to Disneyland first. Dad’s the first to wake, and he makes cereal for everyone. After half an hour, we bundle out the door.
            Like always, I have to listen to Ryan Seacrest in the morning, followed by my…whatever.
            Dad sits in the front as I take the wheel. Mom is happy to stay in the back.
            When Katy Perry starts her bubble gum pop, Dad gives me the look; the look is very similar to Jimmy’s when he disapproves of something.
            Without warning, he changes the channel.
            “Dad…”
            “Nat…we need to respect the oldies.” The Carpenter’s ‘Close To You’ plays. Mom begins to sing.
            It’s something sentimental about The Carpenter’s; something magical. Maybe because, every Christmas, Mom had to put on her The Carpenter’s record and the whole house—uncles, aunts, grandparents, cousins—would match to Karen Carpenter’s voice. Maybe, it’s because, suddenly, everyone would be singing ‘Top of the World’ in perfect unison.
            And, the sentimental parts come as a bang when I remember Jimmy playing piano and I singing to ‘Rainy Days and Mondays’, for the sixty-ninth birthday of my grandmother.
            It’s strange that people never think of these things when there is no tragic occurrence. It’s very strange how people don’t want to think of these things when they’re fighting with the correspondent of these memories.
            Before tears made their way, Dad reminded me that the gas was running out. I pull into a gas station and pay with my card for a full tank.
            All the while, I hear my mom complaining how expensive gas was. She complains why didn’t I get a gas-efficient car.
            I ask Dad to watch the car while I go get some snacks.
            Three waters, a Danish, and a bag of chips later, I stand in line. In front of me is a mom and two kids. Maybe God is playing a bad trick, but the kids were a teenager and a little girl.
            The teen—a boy—is talking to his sister. They’re debating on how to split the bags of chips they have. The little girl wants the Cheetos her brother has, but still wants her Doritos. The boy is selfless and says they’ll share in the car.
            In my mind, I question why God wants to ruin my life so badly. Why does He give me these significant little pieces of my life that make me want to cry.
            The boy takes his sister’s hand as they leave the mini-mart and cross to their car. The way he interlocks his fingers in between hers shows that he isn’t doing this from obligation; if it was an obligation, he would grab her wrist. The way he’s interlocking their fingers signifies how much he loves her; the same way Jimmy did for me.
            I sum up all my strength and pay for the snacks. I nearly run out with my stuff. I get into the car as Dad takes out the pump and puts it back into the holder.
            “You okay?” Mom asks.
            “…I’m fine.” I pass back the bag and start the car. I take one look to my right to see those two siblings in the back of their Toyota. They’re both laughing. I speed off.

Well, Hello There!

i fit the asian stereotypes while being a hi-pro hipster myself. artist, writer, college-goer, penniless FOB stuck in the middle of the So-Cal desert (no, jk). working on that hush hush pre-med. about dat disney life.